2dampretty

   So, I'm finally back on my toes when it comes to being a die-hard yaoi fangirl!  I think I dropped off when I couldn't get my fix of 'Sasuke My Pet' by Ivvymoon.  I was having serious withdrawls!! But now I'm updating myself on some of my faves like 'Misery Loves Company' by Ladelle and I went major bananas on almost all of Animeaddict666's writings. 
   In other news, I believe that I may be preggers! I sincerely hope not because I can't handle it right now. My stomach is starting to poke out there and when I try to hold it in, it doesn't go anywhere! And my stomach is really hard. Damn... I really can't handle another kiddo right now. Maybe I should have bought that pregnancy test at the drug store after all...

    So, today my baby butt started preschool and I unfortunately cried.  He was soooo handsome in his little uniform!!  The pants are navy and the shirt is gold... paired off with some Timbs and a fresh haircut, he is absolutely the cutest thing walking!  Another thing going on in my life is my lack of a life (or social life).  I don't really know what to make of all that in the first place.  I mean, how much of a social life should I have anyway?  I'm a single mother of 1, and I try my hardest to stay out of "sticky" situations (and going to the club is going to create a sticky situation regardless).  I'm not quite sure what I expect.  It's not like I'm gonna go out in the world and have a ton of friends that I can't truly trust fully, I'm content with the handful of friends that I have that I know that I can trust.
    Another thing in my life that just won't go right is my situation with my sons father.  He's a complete jerk toward me and has already made one false promise to my son.  Granted my son doesn't comprehend that his dad said he would come by and see him with a birthday present this past weekend, but I understand fully!  He makes me soooo upset!  The last time Kyle's (that's my son) dad was here, he came on to me and tried to sleep with me.  When I wouldn't he left my place in a huff and has only called twice.  Once was to ask me if I knew what I was doing where my son is concerned and the second time was to say happy birthday to my son and to ask me (again) if I knew what I was doing where my son in concerned.  I am getting sooo tired of it all!!

   Soooo, recently I've been taking these super wack classes (they call them Job Training Classes) and I don't really know what to think about them.  I mean, some of the people in the class are cool, or whatever, but the class in itself sucks.  I have job training but I guess it won't kill me to train in something that I don't know... Like what?? I'm not sure... Let me think about it for a sec... tick ... tick... tick... tick... tick... ok, I got nothing!  I'm sure there's a bunch of stuff out there that I don't know how to do (in fact I'm positive there are) but I don't think I want to do those things... Maybe because I don't know how to do them!! ^o^
  Anyway, my baby bad azz will be starting Preschool soon on the 21st of September and I know for a fact that I'm gonna cry!! He's getting soooo big!!  He's a bad azz 3 yr old with major attitute and a pair of lungs to rival Mariah Carey (pre-Nick Cannon days) and Whitney Houston (pre-crack days).  Oh well, I guess I have to get used to him growing up!  But so far I have lost 52 lbs since my last entry and I'm still going strong.  I kinda went back on my pledge to not to drink anymore but I only drink a beer or two on the weekends... Maybe a shot of vodka or gin... Ok, maybe a pint BUT THAT'S IT!! LMAO!!

   So, life has been getting me down until very recently.  I have decided to stop drinking (unless on special occasions) and work out more.  I feel so good when I work out.  My energy levels are high, I feel happy, and I feel like I can finally keep up with my energetic 2 yr old.  I didn't drink much before, but when I did, I would drink beer mostly and that would end up with the much dreaded beer gut :(  No one deserves beer gut :blech!: SO...  Now that I am on my super crusade to a better body and better self-esteem, I feel like I can take on the world and get rid of the losers that hound me... some men feel like big women are easy prey.  Anyway!! So far I've lost 17 pounds and I know for a fact that I can lose more.  I wish I had a support network... you know?  People who are working out too, so that I may draw inspiration from them on days when I don't want to work out and just cop a squat in front of the TV and watch He's Just Not That Into You over and over and over.

Happy Birthday honey!!  Well... in about 2 days anyway.  So, what have you decided to do for it?  Going clubbing?  COUNT ME IN!!       ~Niecy